"I searched for myself in acting and found reflections of my soul through the characters I portrayed." Utpal Datta speaks to actor Dr. Jahanara Begum.

Dr. Jahanara Begum, celebrated for her role in Anur, shares her inspiring journey of self-discovery through acting. From balancing a demanding career as a physician to receiving the Special Mention at the 69th National Film Awards, her story exemplifies how passion leads to excellence. In Anur, she explored profound themes of solitude and pride, embodying the character of Anupama Baruah with authenticity. With a rich background in theatre and cinema, Dr. Begum continues to inspire audiences worldwide, proving that the quest for self-expression transcends age and boundaries.

Dr. Jahanara Begum, recipient of a Special Mention at the 69th National Film Awards for her role in the film Anur, speaks with Utpal Datta about her experiences, challenges, and inspirations in acting. A multifaceted individual, Dr. Begum juggles her roles as a physician, mother, wife, mother-in-law, and grandmother, all while passionately pursuing her love for acting. With a deep foundation in theatre from her college days, she has seamlessly transitioned into screen acting, taking on both minor and lead roles in her career.  

Utpal Datta: After receiving the President's Award for acting, did you revisit your performance—through screenings or in your mind's eye? What did you see?

Dr. Jahanara Begum: After receiving the award from the Honourable President, I watched the film many times. I’ve revisited it not just through screenings but constantly in my mind. I meticulously review all my work, not just Anur. This practice helps me identify flaws, weaknesses, and areas for improvement. While praise is undoubtedly uplifting for anyone involved in creative work, undue adulation can hinder growth. Constructive criticism, on the other hand, is invaluable and always welcome.

Watching Anur brings many thoughts to mind. Before this film, I had worked in three others, and the lessons from those experiences were fully utilized during the shooting. To immerse myself in the character of Anupama Baruah, I lived at her house—from morning until night, sometimes even staying overnight. The unwavering support of my family—my husband, son, and daughter-in-law—allowed me to remain completely immersed in my role. While I sometimes feel I could have performed certain scenes differently, I am ultimately satisfied with my work.

Utpal Datta: From a story to a screenplay to a film—how much of your input was part of the character’s journey?

Dr. Jahanara Begum: As an actress, my ability to choose a story or character is somewhat limited, especially since roles must align with my age. The passion, enthusiasm, and aspirations I had for acting in my youth remain intact, but back then, my responsibilities were divided between studies, parenting, and other duties. By the time I restarted my acting career, I was past my youth.

There are roles in great stories that I admire but can no longer perform due to my age. Once, while considering a film, I discussed a concept with a director and even began working on a screenplay. However, one day, I revisited Bhalpowar Samoi (The Time for Love), an anthology by Anuradha Sharma Pujari. One story deeply resonated with me. I immediately contacted the director, Manjul Baruah, narrated the story, and sent him a photo of it. He called back, saying, “Let’s work on this story.” That’s how our journey began.

Although I am not a lonely woman, I drew inspiration from my mother-in-law, who experienced solitude after my father-in-law passed away. Observing her dignity and independence helped me shape Anupama Baruah’s character. I even stopped dyeing my hair and wore a cap during the COVID-19 lockdown to align my appearance with the role.

Utpal Datta: How much do you rely on your co-actors in acting? How does this collaboration work?

Dr. Jahanara Begum: A co-actor’s performance significantly impacts one’s own in both theatre and film. Although my film experience is limited, I have observed that good acting is impossible without collaboration. In Anur, I had the privilege of acting alongside the acclaimed actor-director Rajat Kapoor. Since the film didn’t involve post-production dubbing, all dialogues were recorded on-site. Although Rajat Kapoor didn’t know Assamese, he worked tirelessly to master it, even through multiple retakes. We rehearsed extensively to ensure every scene flowed seamlessly.

In another film, Kanin, I worked with a veteran actor who struggled to remember lines. Following the director’s advice, I would say his lines first, which he would then repeat with flawless expressions. Such mutual support helps overcome challenges and elevates the overall performance.

Utpal Datta: Through Anur, you’ve received feedback from viewers in India and abroad. Can you share your experience?

Dr. Jahanara Begum: Anur has been showcased at festivals across India and internationally, including the Dhaka International Film Festival. While we couldn’t attend the Melbourne screening, we met jurors during the National Award ceremony who recognized me as “Anur.” Their heartfelt praise was overwhelming.

At the Kerala International Film Festival, Anur was screened three times, with packed audiences each time. Among the viewers were international filmmakers who became our friends. One unforgettable moment occurred during a trip to Kanyakumari. A young cinematographer, upon recognizing me, quoted Rajat Kapoor’s dialogue from the film. His admiration for Anur deeply moved me and reminded me of the film’s far-reaching impact.

Utpal Datta: What were you seeking in acting, and what have you found?

Dr. Jahanara Begum: Acting has always been a quest for self-discovery. As a child, I was drawn to films, and my father, Mahbubur Rahman, became my first teacher. His guidance—to immerse myself in a character’s every experience and breathe life into them—remains my guiding principle.

Through Anupama Baruah’s solitude and pride, I found reflections of myself. Although our environments differ, seeking her allowed me to uncover her essence. This connection was both pure and soulful, making our bond unforgettable.

Utpal Datta: What role has your husband, Dr. Gopendra Nath Das, played in your acting career?

Dr. Jahanara Begum: My husband’s unwavering support has been instrumental. Just as a shadow never leaves, he has always been by my side, inspiring me in every endeavour. His encouragement has allowed me to pursue my passion while fulfilling my responsibilities at home and in my profession.  

Dr. Jahanara Begum’s journey exemplifies how passion, determination, and support can help one overcome challenges and achieve excellence. Her ability to balance her professional, personal, and creative pursuits is both inspiring and admirable. As she continues to explore new horizons in acting, her story serves as a testament to the transformative power of art and dedication.